My struggle with weight started at 5 years old. It was like one day I woke up and was chubby. This struggle continued through high school and into my 20s and 30s.
I remember feeling helpless and powerless as a kid.
I was overweight no matter what I did which made me want to eat more. My weight was often a topic of conversation with my family and what they could do to incentivize me to lose it.
Meanwhile. my dad struggled with his weight and would yo-yo diet. He, unfortunately, died of cardiac arrest at age 40.
I started high school and gained more weight during this time. Getting to my heaviest weight during my junior year. I had an emotional relationship with food, was sad about my weight, and ate more despite wanting to stop.
I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia when I was 19 which prompted me to see a nutritionist. I started trying to eat “healthy” and pay attention to what I ate. I also started grouping foods into good and bad foods.
I gained and lost weight in my 20’s and 30’s. I was vegetarian, vegan, and then paleo. I started doing Crossfit in my late 20’s but still wasn’t getting the results I wanted. Continuing to struggle with body composition and image. I felt very lost and struggled to make progress despite doing what I thought was right.